Randomness Ensues

I’m really, really, really tired of people

AND I’m a section leader in marching band, AND a counselor at diabetes camp, AND I might be getting a job. Thats not even considering the whole managing blood sugar thing, much less any kind of free time. Basically, school will be a welcome relaxing break. It’s ridiculous. And my parents always go the “We walked to school uphill both ways” (Which, barring some minor act of God, is completely impossible) route. And in my head im like “You weren’t freaking diabetic!” and out loud I’m like “That doesn’t make sense” and then there is yelling and other funness.

Basically, my parents have decided that the fact that I’m diabetic has no affect on anything at all. Which is a nice dream and all, but completely not true. I may make it seem like it doesn’t exist, but it doesn’t ever FEEL like it doesn’t exist. Very few people understand that, and most people have no reason to, but I would expect my parents to at least have an inkling by now. I’ve been nauseous all day cuz my blood sugar has been high. Not fun. No one would ever know that though. I’m just tired of it. 

And now there are a bunch of people relying on me, and just the stress of THAT is enough to knock my blood sugar out of wack, which will lead to more stress, which will lead to more wackiness of blood sugar, and thus we enter a perpetual loop of increasing consequences eventually culminating  in , at the very least, a trip to the hospital, and everything probably being blamed on me. Excellent. 

Then there’s everyone else on the planet. Now most of the people I’m decent friends with are girls, which is fine. I have no problems with that most of the time, but sometimes it just gets to be a little much. With all the yelling and complaining and fighting and gossiping all over insignificant details. And I just want to scream at someone, but there isn’t anyone to vent to because pretty much any girl will be like “Oh thats normal” well DUH. So is dying, but people still get pretty worked up about that one don’t they?

I wish people would stop assuming that since I’m friends with girls, that I’m gay. I don’t even understand how that connection works, and it needs to stop. Everyone just needs to stop being stupid, like NOW.

I think I’m gonna start putting my journal entries from English Lit on here… Just because…

Why is this country so freaking obsessed with relationships????

There is absolutely no reason to take dating in high school so seriously! You shouldn’t have to be dating to go on a date, that actually is supposed to work the OTHER WAY AROUND!

Also, under no circumstances should you feel compelled to date someone, just so you can date someone. If you honestly can’t picture yourself with that person in 20 years, it probably won’t work out well in 4 months either. Which doesnt mean it COULDN’T work out. It could just mean you’re incredibly closeminded, which is another problem entirely, and you should probably get over that.

My favorite kind of relationship OTHER than the “I NEED A SIGNIFICANT OTHER AT ALL HOURS OF THE YEAR” is the “well I love him/her, but we never talk besides texting.” The heck? How is that supposed to work? I love texting, but that isn’t a relationship, that’s barely even a conversation most of the time!

I don’t understand all the craziness…

So I felt really crappy today…

Then I listened to jr. High band (I think 6th graders playing oboe is part of the 9th circle of hell) so I felt even worse. Then I got an ice cream come from sonic, and played minecraft on Xbox for 2 1/2 hours. I feel much better now.